In my work as a Christian and as an author, I have always done my best to learn from my mistakes as I walk my walk with the Lord and those I love. That includes helping others not waste time, and make the same mistakes over and over again.
Two years ago, I met one of the most precious people in my life. At that time, I was instructed to make something for this individual as I came out of prayer and after reading scripture. I was to make a shirt and a cup that said “Irreplaceable,” to remind them always, of their worth and value to me, and that they were a prayer that I had waited for my whole life.
As I have seen myself and my treasure from God, stuck in some of the same cycles, and, had some of my readers and former clients reach out to me, it was suggested to me that I give a bigger overview on accountability and dig into the deeper roots of things, to lay a firm foundation of why this seems to be such a hard concept for others to master, especially in relationships and marriage. I know that when you go through something with someone who truly means something to you and you cannot break those barriers, and you want to see other’s break those patterns, the Holy Spirit gives you an opportunity to turn yourself in, reflect, and course correct.
So, the exciting news is my fourth book is currently in the editing phase and I am hopefully of a release in the next 3-4 months. I feel that this book comes at a great time in our culture, and my hope is that this book will help others. The tentative title to the Book will be Accountability 101: The goal of the book will give the reader a deep dive into why humans have struggled with accountability and the beginning of the book will start back in the garden of eden, where Adam and Eve listened to the lies of the serpent, and hid with guilt and shame. This theme still runs rampant when we trespass against one another. The book will cover satan being the first narcissist, and will cover topics such as are we dealing with a physical issue when it comes to accountability, a soul wound/psychological issue, or a demonic pattern. The overall goal of the book is to get everyone to become comfortable with becoming an emotionally safe individually and to become comfortable with taking accountability in every situation and walking in holiness, not perfection, so we do not continue to burn love and the treasures that God places in our lives.
Over the weekend while working on my heart with the Lord and praying for treasure from God and myself, I was taken back to my journey of being close to death, and when my sister introduced Jack’s Mannequin in my life. At my age, I feel it’s often been hard for peers and most people to understand what someone at the age of 29 goes through when they are faced with a critical illness and being close to death. It shifts your perspective and what matters most.
Memories in my mind took me to the place on late nights and in car rides about how Andrew McMahon, if you don’t know his story [check it out], has always provided me with some comfort. Specifically, the reason I had written The Love Well Letters is because I had wanted people to love themselves and others well. I think back to what I went through with my treasure from God a few weeks ago. I had a right to be upset, but the way I left, I had become a hypocrite in a moment of frustration of what I had talked about in one my letters, which has caused frustration as we take a pause from one another for a brief time.
I was thinking about being given a 70 percent chance of not surviving my surgery to have my device removed [causing major neurological issues due to reactions to materials made in it] and how Jack’s Mannequin would becoming to town 8 weeks later. The doctors did not think I would be able to make it. My little sister and I purchased tickets for it. I rehabed very hard to make that show. I stood there with my heart pillow over my chest, barely getting permission to be at that show with my little sister, but it was one of the most important moments in my life, and one with my little sister I will not forget.
Jesus offers us the ability to correct ourselves and our relationships, and how we have to do it, so we follow His plan for ourselves and our relationships so we Thrive in Him and we are protected. I think about what I am going through and what my treasure from God is going through and what we are going through, and I think back to that moment, gasping for air, having a second near-death experience that I don’t talk about through a 10 hour heart surgery. I feel that right now as I walk through this trial with our relationship.
I think back to how Andrew’s music is getting me through this rough patch, when there seems to be nothing but quiet, which being a contemplative, doesn’t bother me, but when you have lived years enjoying solitude and then suddenly find yourself missing a piece, it’s a different type of feeling. You have God, and His son and his comforter, but something is off and your Spirit knows it didn’t have to occur, which is why, we always have to be on guard from what the enemy wants to kill, steal and destroy, and why working on ourselves, and renewing our minds is so important.
In all of this yapping for the blog, I think back to a crash course of being close to death, and yet, I see similarities in the situation right now, but I continue to pray that Jesus work’s his miracle in this situation.
I find it ironic that people have reached out and asked for something more in-depth in writing for accountability and how to become more emotionally safe people and to become comfortable with being accountable in relationships. Its something we learn to do everyday. It’s a skill to be practiced, and when we have never had that, it’s easy to be fearful, and run or to make excuses when people have beat you down.
So, dig in and enjoy the blog, I will include some of the songs that remind me of the time from the surgery, celebrating the writing of the Love Well Letters over a year ago, and the new Accountability 101 book to be out soon. Don’t take your people for granted. Own it, don’t be afraid to make mistakes, and work as a Godly team. Time is short. Have a good week!
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